I was laying in bed this morning just relaxing and thinking. As I was snuggled under the covers watching the cats playing on the windowsill, little baby boy was a kickin and movin, reminding me that soon he is gonna be a very real part of our little world. It’s terrifying and exciting to think Travis and I are going to be responsible for a little life we created! It’s humbling to know God is entrusting this little boy to us who will rely on us solely for his health, safety, and growth.
Along with this new chapter in our life, another one will soon close in mine. I will be quitting my job to become a full time stay-at-home mom. I will admit, I never grew up having a huge desire to be a mom with kids, I wanted a job in public relations or communications, and saw myself working and loving a job that fulfilled me. I was going to community college when I met Travis. My life had taken a few turns that maybe it shouldn’t have the previous year, which put schooling behind. But, I had learned from my experience and re-evaluated, and was ready to try again. When I married Travis it was with the knowledge that again, school would have to be put on the back burner for the time being, with the possibility of continuing again a few years later.
For the past seven years, I have had the same job. I haven’t loved the job, I enjoy the people I work with and the job itself is fine, good company, good benefits. However, it was not a place I saw myself making a career out of, it was just a paycheck. I feel like sometimes, we all get in a comfortable rut, we don’t love what we are doing, but it could be worse so we just go with it. I’ve been doing that, I think we all find ourselves in this situation from time to time.
When Travis and I found out I was pregnant, we knew a lot would be changing. We knew I would be quitting my job, and that while it’s for the best for us and our child, it’s still going to be a struggle to go from two paychecks down to one. We both feel that it is important for me to stay home with our little boy. I thank God daily that my husband and I are on the same page about how we want to raise our child. It’s gonna be tough, but so worth it in the long run. Yes we will have to figure some things out, and the next few years will be a growing experience, but we are truly excited and feel blessed to be afforded this opportunity.
I think my point in all this is that we can have our life planned out to a T, and think we know what is going to happen, but we really never have full control or power as to how things are going to turn out, and we need to accept that. I love my life! I might not have planned it out this way, but looking back I wouldn’t change a darn thing! My husband means everything to me, absolutely everything. I love him more than I can express, and our relationship is way more important than some career I had planed out in my mind. Life is such a blessing and a miracle, and so often I forget to look at it that way.
Yes I worked for the past seven years at an okay job, yes I still have school that I would love to go back and complete, but looking around at what I am blessed with now, I can’t say I would of done anything different.